What You Can't Have

What You Can't Have

by Joshua Silva

You don't want freedom

You want something else

Something a little more safe

Something centered on self-...

Righteousness.

Zombie Love

Zombie Love

by Joshua Silva

Some day we'll be zombies together

We'll revel in the death of our flesh forever and ever.

Our sanguine hearts eternally picked apart

By the rotting hands of our wicked love.

One day we will die for each other.

Rise again to devour the bones of our mothers

Blood will run when death craves some fun

The bitter thrill of our infernal desire.

This is zombie love

To kill the ones you love

This is zombie love

The love you die for

Again and again

Some day you'll take hold of my heart

Tear it right from my chest and rip it apart

I'll steal one last kiss before undeath and bliss

On that unholy night I will die for you.

Our last breath will be our first

Our hunger will become our thirst

For brains and skin and the darkness within

The key to your heart was always in the dying.

This is zombie love

To kill the ones you love

This is zombie love

The love you die for

Again and again

Just A Man

Just a Man

by Joshua Silva

I used to be a very mean man

The kind of man nobody really wanted to know,

but nobody could escape

The kind of man that took comfort in empty liquor bottles

and broken down whores

I used to be a very holy man

The kind of man full of questions on his tongue

and God in his heart

The kind of man who took solace in nature

and the wholeness of beauty

I used to be a very lonely man

The kind of man who hid from the world

yet always yearned for touch

The kind of man who lived alone

and feared eyes of joy

I used to be a very social man

The kind of man who kept the company of friends

and passionate lovers

The kind of man that shook hands with a smile

and deeply embraced others

I used to be a very dying man

The kind of man who gave up on living

and sought peace in death

The kind of man who fondled razor blades and pills

hoping one bloody slip could bring silence

I used to be a very living man

The kind of man who roamed the earth

in search of every new thing

The kind of man who valued experience and truth

at the expense of any risk

I used to be a very quiet man

The kind of man who shied from conversation

never choosing to be recognized

The kind of man who grew nervous in a crowd

hiding shaky hands

I used to be a very loud man

The kind of man who always had something to say

and a point to be made

The kind of man who believed in revolution

screaming freedom in every deaf ear

I used to be a very hateful man

The kind of man who smiled when others wept

delighted by misery

The kind of man who would break a lonely heart

just so I could feel my own

I used to be a very loving man

The kind of man who only wanted joy for everyone

and cared deeply for a stranger

The kind of man who cried for the anguish of others

wishing to mend the heart of the world

I used to be every kind of man

But men will always love

and men will always hate

Men will always live

And then men will always die

I used to be every kind of man

But today I am just a man

Stand Up

Stand Up

by Joshua Silva

In the hearts of your children

In the minds of your old

Some are on fire

While some have grown cold

And it doesn't matter

How old you've grown

You will either stand up

Or sit down when you're told

You will either stand up

Or do what you're told

In the eyes of a stranger

In the hands of a friend

Comfort and fear

Can defeat you in the end

And you can either fight back

Or die where you stand

Searching for justice

In an unjust land

Fighting for freedom

With chains on your hands

If you're a soldier

Or just a man

Your greatest weapon

Is not found in the hand

It's deep in the heart

Where no army can march

It's your love of freedom

And it's yours from the start

It's your right to freedom

And it's yours from the start

Mothers and Fathers

Be mindful to seek

The wisdom of children

And the dreams that they keep

And be sure that you guard

That spark in their heart

For this is the place

Where change gets its start

This is the place

Where Revolution starts

Sojourn

Sojourn

by Joshua Silva

I will not be bound by civil restraints

Nor kept complacent by patriotic ideology

I will not sacrifice dreams nor freedoms

For the luxuries of wealth

Or the comforts of security

I will not believe in impossibility

Nor be lead to hopeless abandon

Simply because other men are afraid

Of touching the stars

I will reach for the Sun itself

I will not let the signs of Fate

Become as passing road signs

Observed from rear view mirrors

Rather I will softly kiss her lips

And become the dream of her lover

Destiny shall be the compass

By which I am lead to her poles

And love shall be the map

By which I plot my course

And beauty the final destination

Fear will not deter me

From absolute freedom

From absolute fulfillment

Of Desire

And of Will

In Agape, abundance

In Thelema, truth

I now go to the End of the World

Echappée Nocture

Echappée Nocture

by Joshua Silva

Do you recall all that beauty we saw

As we left on the rail that night

The moon was high but my spirit was low

Until I saw you sitting 'neath that moon's light

My heart jumped and I knew at once

Everything would be alright

If someone so free, someone so true

Could flash like lightening in my life

With the crack of thunder and beauty of heart

Someone like you, someone like you

I've always been searching for you

For you, for you, for you

We spoke for hours, we spoke so long

We knew we had to go somewhere

Where we had to go was really no concern

Only that we had to make that journey there

I would have gone anywhere

I should have gone anywhere

With you, with you

With you, with you

I still remember that look in your eyes

Like you found magic in some distant land

And I still remember your sweet embrace

When you caressed my face with those angelic hands

I can still taste your lips

I can still taste your lips

What a cruel God that must be out there

To bring us together only to tear us apart

Or maybe it's a kind God

That teaches Love lives only in the heart

No matter how near or how far

Forever and forever together we are

Forever and for ever

Till death do us part

For better or worse

Our love is our heart

Our love is our heart

But everything is alright

If, baby, just for one night

Everything is alright

Tonight

We're shining so bright

So bright, so bright

So bright, so bright

We're in Heaven tonight

Tonight

New Moon

New Moon

by Joshua Silva

When I see the Half Moon

I am reminded that I am only half a heart

Reminded that I am only half a soul

While we are so very far apart

When I see the Full Moon

I am reminded of the Man I will be

That our love will make us whole

When the night comes that you are near me

When I see no Moon at all

When it is hidden from my view

I am reminded that I am Nothing

Nothing without you